napkins and candy

Chris and I just got really lucky. Because of a super sale, free shipping and a coupon, we're getting 300 personalized mini Hershey bars, 200 personalized napkins and 15 throw away cameras for just over $100. That is a LOT of stuff!! Imagine this napkin in lavender with our names and "May 4, 2009" while retaining the AWESOME guitars and you'll be imagining our napkins. Keep the color and the butterfly, change the names and date and you'll have our candy. YAY!

I had my first dress fitting with Jenny today. It is going to look GREAT! I'm excited. I'm now in the process of trying to find shoes that will match both the white and blue dress. I've been looking at some pink sling backs on 6pm.com. I don't normally wear pink or sling backs but or some reason I am totally drawn to them. Yes, they are returnable. I'm also going to probably need to find a crinoline, which I will definitely be dyeing. I wonder what color I should use. We don't have a set of colors or anything so I just keep throwing things together.

My little fabric bouquet came the other day! It is SO adorable. I'm still trying to decide what exactly to do with it (use it for myself or let my sister use it) but, just so you all know, it's very cute. I also got my samples of paper for invitations and Alyssa is finished with the design, so we'll probably get started on that really soon. I mean, we pretty much have to. Time is ticking away.

I think I want red velvet, carrot and yellow cake. You might be asking, "But how can you have all three???" I can because my mom is making it (or... uh... them). I've been having a crazy sweet kick lately. I wish I could eat all that cake right now!

We have our ceremony photographer set up!! He is also going to take our headshots, one of these sessions FOR FREE!!! We got an amazing deal just because I asked. Remember to ask. I think I am going to write a car company and ask them for a free car. Just to keep.

The other night I dreamt that someone was trying to keep Chris and I apart and they erased my memory and made me date all these other people. I kept dumping them because I hated them and I was saying, "Who is that guy that makes my heart feel better?" Suddenly I realized it was Chris and I set out to find him. I saw him at the end of this long, wide hallway, surrounded by other people (who were trying to hide him from me) but I recognized him because of his beard.

i got it straightened out

Ok, so here is what is happening. I took my blue dress in to Jenny and she is going to tailor it. She also had this old, ivory gown from the 60s that she suggested I try on. I was like "I dunno... it's long and I wanted a short dress." She told me we could shorten it. I still didn't think I'd like it, but then I put it on and I was like "OH! This looks really good!" So, she's basically taking a vintage gown, shortening the length, taking off the straps and I am exchanging babysitting for these superb tailoring services.

So, it turns out I'm going to be wearing white-ish afterall. I'm going to wear the blue dress to the pre-(weddding) reception. I will call this event the PWR from now on because I am lazy. This also will make it less awkward when I wear it to auditions and other things later. It also leaves me open to chose the bouquet I REALLY wanted (on the left), which I thought would be too much color with the blue dress. HOORAY! All I had to do was try something on and all my dreams came true!! (This bouquet is paper and denim and I love it and always have.)

I think I also might buy this fabric bouquet that arrived in my life last night (thank you, etsy), for my sister. We're not having a wedding party, per se, but if there's going to be anyone, it's going to be my sister. (She'll be the one dressed like the national guard.) Or MAYBE I'll see them both and suddenly decide I like the fabric one better and switch their places around. You know I like to change my mind about things. (Maybe I should buy the cheaper one first and then decide if I want the other one, too. At least I am learning.)

Alyssa has started our invitation designs and not only are they going to be crazy life-like, they are also HILARIOUS. Both Chris and I started laughing when she showed us her sketch. I can't wait until we copy them on a copy machine and send them away to people.

I've been thinking about favors recently. I'm not crazy about the whole idea of favors. They seem like such a waste of... everything. Unless, of course, you are able to give GOOD favors. One wedding I went to gave hand-made ceramic vases and things (the bride did it for a living. It was awesome). At my friend Alison's wedding she had really nice soap. I really liked that soap a lot. I mean, soap is pretty common but it has a purpose. Everyone can use soap so it won't just get thrown away. It will melt away as it cleanses so it serves its purpose and then it's GONE. You can always remember it (like I'm doing now). I was thinking seed packets because, you know, seeds grow into something and seeds are better for the environment than 150 things made out of plastic or aluminum that are just going to get thrown away anyway. Plus, we can't afford anything wonderful and the cheap stuff LOOKS cheap (golf tees, corkscrews, miniature ice cream scoops). I'd like to do the least amount of damage that I can. Over the weekend, though, I started thinking about making a donation instead of favors, probably to the Australian Red Cross. I don't think anyone can get mad at you for making a donation, unless it's to an organization they don't support, but who doesn't support relief for the victims of FIRE? And those poor koala bears!

If we did golf tees or whatever, I bet half the people wouldn't even take them. THEN what would we do? I'd have to take up golf! Not on my watch, folks!

Now I am on the lookout for shoes. Whatever I get, I better make sure they're returnable.

i am ridiculous

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????

My blue dress arrived on Monday. I tried it on when I got home from DC. It was huge. So huge, it looked like a jumper. Now, let me just say, never in a million years did I think anything that was size FOUR would be huge on me. But it is. And Jenny can tailor it. That's fine. What is NOT fine is that now I am going through a dress crisis and rethinking the whole thing!!!!

Now I'm all, "Well, maybe I should wear white..." I bought this issue of Modern Bride at the airport (which I left on the plane. Chris bought me another one when I got home because, as he said, "when will you buy this again after May?" True) to look at cakes. But there was this girl in an ad for M&Ms, wearing this strapless, short, white dress... and pink sneakers. And no, I don't want to wear pink sneakers. But she looked so cool! And I know I'm not tan. But the dress looks great! And I want that dress! And WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?????

The problem is that buying in a store will lead to me spending more money than I can possibly spend. So I keep looking on ebay, where you can't return anything. Oh, God. Does everyone do this? I can still WEAR the blue dress (to the pre-reception thing) and I could probably wear it a lot more for other stuff, too (like auditions and every other event I go to for the rest of my life). I'm just having a crisis and don't know what I want.

I'll probaby like the blue dress a lot more when it actually fits me. But, still. I should NOT buy another dress. I should not, I should not, I should not. I wish I really believed that.

In other news, Alyssa is going to design our invitations and she is great so they are going to be great.

In more other news, there is a j crew store in Charlottesville and I think I need to go there post haste to see if this style of white dress fits me in a size 2 before I do anything else.

I wish I was getting married on an island!!! I'd know what I'd want if I was on an island!!!!

blue, blue dress

I did it.

I bought the blue dress.

The original price was $250. It was "buy it now" on ebay for $95. Today I went to check and make sure it was still there and it was on a special sale and the price was down to $76.

I took this as a sign from God that I should be wearing blue to my wedding.

....and now I am. I'm nervous but also excited.

I guess this means I'll be needing a white bouquet. Which one do you like better?

Silk daisies?


Origami Tulips?

or Button bouquet?

a place and a date

We are getting married at The Sandusky Yacht Club! It sounds really fancy, doesn't it? When I told Chris that's the place his mom booked he said "WHOA!!! The YACHT CLUB??" I've never been there but it sounds like it must be nice.

I have not committed 100% to a dress, yet. There are basically 3 I am looking at. They're all pretty similar (short, white-ish) but I haven't decided for sure yet. I really wish I could wear a blue one. I CAN... I just wonder if people will freak out. What if everything else was white? I just really like color. Plus, blue is cheaper than white (which is just silly). AND... I actually LIKE blue! I don't like white. Man, now I want to wear blue really bad.

Oh, so my sister said, as long as we get married after 5pm on Monday the 4th, she'll have no problem getting there... so it's ON LIKE DONKEY KONG! May 4th, 2009. We are totally getting married that day. I hope I'm wearing blue!!

We are still going to have a pre-marriage reception on Saturday the 2nd. I know. I have decided that Chris and I are going to be our own entertainment at it. We'll spend April coming up with a set list and we're just going to take our guitars and play and sing. That way, I'll have something to do. Listen, I don't drink and I get nervous talking to people that I don't know in regular conversation, especially if I have to talk to them for a long time. I get REALLY nervous if I want them to like me. Usually I just end up saying nothing beause I'm too afraid people won't be able to handle my real personality. You see, I am always "on" in real life. If I am not entertaining you it is because I'm too afraid of you. Some people are only "on" when they're performing, I am just ALWAYS "on." (I hate having to put that in quotations... but it should be in quotation marks so I have to live with it.)

You know, white makes me look weird. I had to wear a white dress in The Merchant of Venice and it really washed me out. Maybe I should bring this up to someone. Maybe I should bring it up to ME because ultimately, I am the one who is going to make the decision.

It's really pretty, isn't it?